February 25, 2025
There were wheels
We knew we needed them
To keep us rolling
The chug of the engine
Kept us company
Time stood still for a while
When the towns would come by
The whistle warned them
There’s a crusty old engine
With cars in its’ wake
We’re coming through
We don’t mean to cause trouble
We just want you to know
Please don’t stand in our way
So we rolled through the mountains
Across the wide prairies
So flat you felt you saw
Across to the other side
You watched the wind move
The slight tired prairie grasses
Just those with the courage
To stand through the snow
There were lakes all along
As we rolled to the east
It was dead center winter
So they were all white
Covered with snow
And their water was frozen
The pike and the trout
Moved slowly below it
Waiting for winter to bid them so long
The muskrat, the beaver
Wait for the sun, for the spring
While we roll on by them
Now we will remember
The icy cold winter
When we all kept warm
As the wheels kept on rolling
We kept on dreaming
Of fields filled with flowers
Mountain green forests
Miles of prairie grasses
Underneath that winter snow
I sometimes feel like I’m in a confessional. I don’t think I’ve always had this tendency
to tell - and like I say, confess my life, fraught with
poor judgement, decisions, or lack of decision.
It’s four in the morning.
I find it difficult to believe it is day six. I guess we’re halfway home as time goes, even
though we are not to the halfway mark as miles go.
Not to stereotype people, but most of these people have
raised families, and many of them are professionals of one kind or
another. They don’t know the ways of the
road. This is all a fantasy to them
while it has been a good portion of my life.
I told the story of King Cove - being fired etc. last night. I don’t think it probably did much for my
reputation. What do I have to talk
about? No kids, a pretend career?
I’m going to take a crack at describing where I am right
now. The place where I am is called a
“berth”. In the daytime it is seats,
more like a bench. This setup is kind of
in the corner of the rail cars. We are
on the left side of the car if we are facing forward. I should say “I” am on the left side of the
car.
Kristi is in the berth directly across from me on the right
side of the car. There is a thick cloth
curtain with snaps on it that pulls across my space. I snap it closed after I climb the ladder and
get in place in my berth.
The berth is about 40” wide (a little more than 3 feet) by
6’ long (maybe 75” but no more than that).
There is a small fan to move air at each end of the berth and there are
port hole shaped mirrors at each end as well (about 8” in diameter).
There is a berth beneath me.
He actually has a window he can see out of. Lower berths are more expensive.
There are two lights in my berth, one on each end on the
wall. I’m using one just now to see
while I write this.
This contraption folds up during the day. There is a steel frame that my bed hangs
on. It is a little under six feet to the
floor, not too high but high enough to hurt yourself if you fall off the
ladder.
There is an aisle between the berths and people walk through
to get to the dining car, or the “park”(bar) car. We have never been game people and I suspect
we are somewhat anti-social as a result.
There is a “game” car as well.
I think some people enjoy the confinement. I don’t, but on the other hand these times
early in the morning when I can be alone with myself hold some appeal. Perhaps it is a return to the womb.
The train is stopped.
I wonder if we’ll get home on schedule?
There’s no WIFI on this train.
Did I already say that?
Sorry –
It’s the last day on this #2 train. I’m still not sleeping well and I keep
drifting off. We are going through
mostly evergreen forest. There are a lot
of lakes and rivers on this part of the journey. I’ve been getting a lot of background from
people, mostly Canadians. I have talked
to Aaron, my bunkmate (he’s in the lower bunk).
I may have mentioned that he is a lawyer from Duluth, MN.
I still feel alienated from most of the passengers even
though I’ve had conversations, apparently, I’m just not all that
interesting. Maybe no one except Claire.
I was looking for animals in the forest, and I see quite a
few tracks, but haven’t actually seen any live animals. I want to write some new songs for us to
sing. I don’t have enough privacy to
write on this journey. Well -- I can write, just can’t make any noise.

You wouldn’t know
How down I feel
You couldn’t know
how far I could fall
I couldn’t tell you
Couldn’t find the
words
Even if I could
I know I’d never be
heard
I’s a blue, blue
being
A blue, blue
feeling
In this darkness
where I dwell
Listening to my
thoughts
I thought I’d left
behind
Talking to the sky
inside my head
Trying to find my
way
Not knowing that
I’m lost
Why I feel so lone
in this room
Wandering through
the fairgrounds
Watch jugglers
balls get tossed
Green, and blue and
red
Running down a
skyway
Of a past I’d left
behind
Tripping on a day
And what I thought
you’d said
If I can’t be
myself
Please tell me
Who else can I be?
Thursday, February 27th
We are not riding on the City of New Orleans. In fact we are headed from Niagara to NYC,
expected to arrive in the nine o’clock hour sometime.
We had a nice time in Toronto. Kristi and I had hum bao in a Chinese
restaurant for lunch (or brunch), and we had dinner in a genuinely Italian
restaurant for dinner. Their menu was in
Italian and I didn’t know what I was ordering.
It had dandelion greens, and sausage, but I didn’t quite catch the
Italian words. I turned out to be mac
and cheese, which I would never have ordered.
It was OK though and Kristi gave me some of her pizza. Comfort food.
When we were in Vancouver we went to a ramen restaurant, which I would
generally never do, but it was a nice place and David, Kristi and I were
impressed with the ambiance of the place.
The ramen was original (or I thought so), and quite tasty. The Italian restaurant was named Sud Forno,
and had good (not great) ambiance but we had walked far enough, and we enjoyed
ourselves.
When we found the Italian restaurant, we were looking for a
South American restaurant that we had found on a directory at Eaton Center, a
three story (or near as I could tell) mall with a glass ceiling. It looked like the restaurant was at the far
end of the mall from where the directory was located. I figured we could walk the length of any
mall around so we set off down the mall.
It was a lot longer than I anticipated, and when we got to the end the
directory there made it clear that the restaurant was not actually in the mall,
but someplace down the street from the end of the mall.
There was construction going on so when we walked out of the
mall, we were alongside a long plywood wall concealing the construction area in
the street. We followed that until the
end of the construction, and finally we found the restaurant, which was clearly
in a state of remodeling, and quite closed.
That’s how we found Sud Forno. It
was about two blocks from the restaurant we had been searching for.
We had made a trip to CN tower between brunch and
dinner. We grabbed a cab to get us
there. From 1975 to 2009 it was the
tallest structure in the world. It
really gave us a perspective on how large a city Toronto is. It is BIG!
You couldn’t see beyond the limits of the city from the tower. There is a nice view of Lake Ontario from the
tower, and it looks just like an ocean from there, certainly larger than any
lake I’d seen previously. We bought a
few souvenirs in the
gift shop at the base of the tower. From there we caught a cab back to our hotel. On the way back to the Pantages Hotel we had
a nice talk with our cab driver, a Nigerian immigrant to Ontario. He said he had a hard time getting to having
a living wage for quite a while after he came to Canada, but seemed pretty
happy with his life as it now stands. He
said he lives a humble life, cooking for his family, and apparently making more
money. I didn’t ask him if he had other
jobs besides driving a cab.
As we travel through New York State I can’t help but think
of our old friend John Bartles who we met through a compilation album we were
both part of. He had come out to
Washington and just showed up on our front porch one day. Then a year or so later, Kristi and I made a
trip east and stayed with him in Buffalo.
He had explained that he suffered from schizophrenia, but
most of the time he was OK. He was a
prolific, and quite funny songwriter. He
used a variety of musicians on his recordings which were well produced on the
whole. He asked us for a favor - to sell some books for him - and
we turned him down. In his
disappointment, we never heard from him again.
I still have the red beret he gave me, although it has become a bit
motheaten over the years.
Sometimes I struggle with a question of what people think I
should be. I don’t know if everyone has
a hard time discerning what is real, and what is not real. Then there’s the question of who has the most
accurate conception of reality - as an artist one can express realities that
do not exist, realities, that do exist, and realities that are too real to
acknowledge, and the most mundane realities.
I stop to have a drink
From the sparkling
clear water
I dance along the
trail
Express the joy
that’s in my heart
Here I’ve come to
love
My playtime in the
mountains
My time away from home
A time to walk out
of the dark
It’s one foot
forward
A climb into the
heights
It’s another foot
forward
I walk out of the
night
To my playtime in
the mountains
Clean air,
sparkling water fountains
How I’ve come to
love this time
This time of
playtime in the mountains
Winter/summer/get
way from work
You see the rented,
broken remnants
Of a life led in
his past